As the rejection letters continue rolling in, I am amazed that they do not upset me, discourage me, or change His will. When I receive these kind form letters, I simply sit down at my computer, open up my file, and type the date it was rejected by the publisher or agent--almost methodically! My husband (bless his heart) always is sure to tell me when one of my SASE arrives in the mail -- at first he did this with enthusiasm (only b/c he didn't realize that the SASE coming back in the mail wasn't a good thing) but I explained the process to him. A thin SASE, not good - a phone call, good - a thick envelope, good - nothing, not good. He understands now, but still is sure to announce when I have recieved my SASE or rejection letter. Maybe he still holds out hope that inside one of these letters is actually an acceptance or a check!
My emotionless response to these rejection letters is not because I don't care about the publication of the book, I care very much about it! It comes from a place deeper, a place the Lord has touched with His will. Because I remember the exact moment He gave me the story. So, I know it is His will that I penned the story, but I also know that I do not know His will for the story from this point forward. You know the world would say at this point that it is only successful if it is published, if it sells 1 million copies, etc. etc. etc. (Recall if you would the books that have done this -- sadly, many of them are not to God's glory)
I am reminded of the story of a man who was told by God to push a boulder. Each day the man pushed and pushed and the boulder would not move. Of course Satan began having a wonderful time taunting the man because he could not move the boulder. (have you been there?) So this went on and on and the man was beginning to lose heart, discouragement began to seep in. The Lord spoke. He reminded the man that he was asked to push the boulder, not move it. Because in the pushing his character was being built much more than had he been able to move the boulder. Praise God!
So, I'll keep pushing my boulder, waiting on the Lord's timing, and finding the good in those rejection letters. You know, actually, I've been surprised at how nice they actually are AND how apologetic the publishers/agents are when they send the FORM letter. Heck, I'm just glad they take the time to read everything they get AND respond.
My writing is so much a part of who I am, I could not stop now even if I wanted to -- He has a purpose for me (and you).
To God's Glory!