I finally get it

After so many years of failed relationships, addictions, depression and loneliness, I get it.
After a lifetime of intensive psychotherapy and marital counseling it all seems so simple.
The loss of my mother to alcoholism in early childhood left me convinced that I would inevitably lose anything or anyone I loved. So much of my life has been a painful and messy attempt to avoid that pain of early loss.
What would it be like if I didn’t need to protect myself from caring to deeply for others or life itself?
I am eager to find out.