Blocked

I'm blocked and my outline has failed me. I keep hoping for a knock in the beanie to get me started again. My wife says I need a break. You see, I get up at 0345 to go to my day job. I get home just about 1500. I eat supper, and at 1600 I feed the four dogs finishing up around 1700. Then, it's quality time with wifey-poo. It's bed time at 2000 where I mull/meditate my next move with the book-usually keeping my mind going till 2300 or so when I finally go out. I think there's something wrong with my outline's layout-perhaps I need to revamp it a bit-I need a key word though I'm not sure what that might be right now.
I keep going back to SMALL GIFTS: very short stories with a touch of faith for a little inspiration-it was my first. Every little story has the Savior helping the subject to overcome his dilemma. Now, I don't ask for that kind of help. I do look to Him for inspiration-something that comes from my own faith. Hey, I say,"Good night buddy-see you in the morning" every night looking at his image just before I switch off the light. Who else does that? I think I'm going to have to find a sand dune somewhere where I can get nude and bake in the sun all by myself. (No pictures, please. At age 60 gravity has begun to take its' toll. You don't want to get sick laughing too hard, do you?). Anyway, I go back to what Blessed Charles de Foucald wrote (I mention this in SMALL GIFTS): "One must pass through the desert and spend some time there in order to receive the grace of God; it is there that one empties oneself, that one drives away from oneself everything which is not God and that one empties completely the house of one's soul in order to leave all of it to God alone." I need to cleanse.
The "INTERLUDES" between those stories tell the true story of our rescued little female Maltese set in letters to our daughters, Sidonia and Andrea. I look to those letters for help, too. It ain't happening! I think I'll take tomorrow off-a lets play hooky day-a mental health day away from the day job. Maybe something will pop so I can continue. I still need a key word!