I Forgive Me

I did it.

Yup that was me,

Caught up in what I felt,

Instead of in what I could see.

I stepped in.

Played with the water.

Almost drowned before realizing,

I was in way too deep.

Somehow I stayed.

The temptation was too potent,

My feeble mind could not decipher,

the warning signs.

Way too late,

I realized that one moment,

can change a lifetime,

and it wasn’t just mine.

I was stuck.

Mired in the stench and muck,

unseeing, not realizing,

lost.

Then something happened.

The unrelenting waves began to calm,

I saw the proverbial light,

as it broke through and kissed my face.

I looked down.

No more chains holding me hostage,

It was my own hands,

holding myself down.

I broke free.

No longer a prisoner in my own head.

No more a part of the living dead.

I saw me.

It was me.

Yup I did it.

I won’t forget it.

But I forgive me.